IWSG – A MONTH OF CHANGES

Hello bloggers. It is the first Wednesday of the month and we know what that means, right? Time for the Insecure Writers Support Group – #IWSG.

NinjaInsecure Writers Support Group Badge Captain Alex J. Cavanaugh , my hero and one of my mentors, founded this amazing and wonderful group.

The group’s purpose is to allow writers to share their doubts and fears, trials and tribulations without fear of being mocked or feeling foolish. It’s also a place where writers who have “been there” can offer wisdom and guidance.

Whenever anyone finishes a draft, edits their work, finds the perfect critique group, publishes their work, or has any other good news to share, this is the place to do it too!

he awesome co-hosts for the August 3 posting of the IWSG are Tamara Narayan, Tonja Drecker, Ellen @ The Cynical Sailor, Lauren @ Pensuasion, Stephen Tremp, and Julie Flanders!

Please take a moment to thank them for all their hard work this month.🙂

The past month has been both good and bad. I’ve spent most of it in NJ with my daughter and son-in-law due to the heat wave that was going on in my area. Since I don’t have A/C at home, it was the best option. While I was there, I ran out of my Paxil. When I had a few pills left, I spread out the days I took them, opting to see how I felt with just the Duloxetine (Cymbalta) in my system (prescribed for my neuropathy, but also used for depression). I had some withdrawal symptoms, but nothing crazy. I slept a lot, and had some periods of nausea and diarrhea. Other than that, I seemed to be OK.

When I was hospitalized, my neurologist had to discontinue my Topiramate because of the kidney stones I had. They helped prevent my migraines. Since I was on Paxil, there really wasn’t anything else to give me. Now that I’m off Paxil, my psychiatrist can prescribe another medication that will work for both my depression and migraines. Unfortunately, the name escapes me now. I know it’s too soon to tell if being without the Paxil and just the Duloxetine will work, but if it does, then I might just need something for migraine prevention only. Good stuff.

Overall, I had a good time in NJ seeing my family, and another change I made was getting my hair cut and buying some new clothes. Hopefully I’ll have something BIG to report in my next post, but I’m not counting my chickens yet. Stay tuned.

Have you made any changes in your life recently, big or small?

Check out my other blog’s IWSG post this month too at lilicasplace.

 

 

 

 

 

IWSG – FEELING GOOD

Hello bloggers. It is the first Wednesday of the month and we know what that means, right? Time for the Insecure Writers Support Group – #IWSG.

NinjaInsecure Writers Support Group Badge Captain Alex J. Cavanaugh , my hero and one of my mentors, founded this amazing and wonderful group.

The group’s purpose is to allow writers to share their doubts and fears, trials and tribulations without fear of being mocked or feeling foolish. It’s also a place where writers who have “been there” can offer wisdom and guidance.

Whenever anyone finishes a draft, edits their work, finds the perfect critique group, publishes their work, or has any other good news to share, this is the place to do it too!

The awesome co-hosts for the July 6 posting of the IWSG are Yolanda Renee, Tyrean Martinson, Madeline Mora-Summonte , LK Hill, Rachna Chhabria, and JA Scott!

July has been off to a great start! I’m feeling better than I have in some time. Friends and former colleagues that I haven’t seen in a couple of years were up my way. One of my former co-workers, Vee, picked me up two days in a row so I could spend time at an area pool. She’s my sister from another mister.🙂

I was pleasantly surprised when I saw others that I knew from NJ at the pool. I did throw caution to the wind on Sunday, having about four drinks instead of my usual two baby drinks. I suffered royally that night from a migraine, but for all that fun, it was worth it.

Check out my other blog’s IWSG post this month too at lilicasplace.

How was your Fourth of July weekend?

 

 

 

 

 

 

#CTST – FANTABULOUS WEEK!

Hey everyone! I took a much-needed mental health break at a beloved friend’s house for about a month, but I’m back.🙂

It’s time for another posting of Celebrate the Small Things brought to us by LEXA CAINPost anything in life that you’re celebrating, no matter how small or big, on your blog.

Sign up by clicking on the image, hop around and celebrate with others.

Make Celebrate the Small Thingssure your blog post has a link to the sign-up as well, so other bloggers will be able to sign-up and hop around too. 

This is such a simple and easy blog-hop, and it also happens to be one of my favorites.  After posting the things you have to celebrate, please don’t forget to visit and thank Lexa and her awesome and amazing co-hosts for the wonderful job they do:

 

LG Keltner @ Writing Off the Edge   and Tonja Drecker @ Kidbits

 It’s been an amazing couple of weeks. My daughter Mandy graduated EMT school a couple of weeks ago and took her State exam on the 27th of June. She called me yesterday morning to let me know that she received her results. She passed with an 86 on her first shot. My baby is officially a New Jersey certified Emergency Medical Technician! I’m one proud Mama! She’s considering going back to school to study Nursing. Happy dance! 

I’ve gotten most of my doctor appointments out-of-the-way for the next few months (except my neuropsychologist, of course), and everything is looking good from a neurological standpoint. My primary noticed that my LDL is high, so she’s switched my cholesterol med from Simvastatin to Lipitor because it’s supposed to be better. My kidney function is almost back to normal and the rest of my blood work was good.

Best of all, I’m STILL ON THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE GRASS!! Yeah, Baby!!

What have you celebrated this week?

 

 

 

IWSG – NOWHERE TO GO BUT UP

Hello bloggers. It is the first Wednesday of the month and we know what that means, right? Time for the Insecure Writers Support Group – #IWSG. I can’t believe I almost forgot about it this month; it’s so unlike me.

NinjaInsecure Writers Support Group Badge Captain Alex J. Cavanaugh , my hero and one of my mentors, founded this amazing and wonderful group.

The group’s purpose is to allow writers to share their doubts and fears, trials and tribulations without fear of being mocked or feeling foolish. It’s also a place where writers who have “been there” can offer wisdom and guidance.

Whenever anyone finishes a draft, edits their work, finds the perfect critique group, publishes their work, or has any other good news to share, this is the place to do it too!

The awesome co-hosts for the May 4 posting of the IWSG are Stephen Tremp, Fundy Blue, MJ Fifield, Loni Townsend, Bish Denham, Susan Gourley, and Stephanie Faris!

Make sure to take a moment and thank them for all they do.

I know that most of my followers are aware that the past few months have not gone well for me. I’ve been struggling lately and have been in a really dark place emotionally. Some days it was all I could do to get out of bed.

Depression and anxiety suck big time. It took a friend to remind me of the things that keep me going. My psychiatrist finally took me off the Respiridone because she knew I didn’t need it. While I still struggle occasionally with the whole recent hospital incident, I realize that the only person who’s hurting is me.

Today is actually a good day for me. I accomplished more than I had intended and actually enjoyed my writing time. While the last couple of months had me at rock bottom, the silver lining to that is that there’s nowhere to go but up.

I’m getting back into my meditation and focusing on more positive thinking. Hopefully the spark of creativity that I had today will continue and I will be out of this funk soon.

Today is also my second blogiversary for this site. I’m happy about that too. I thank each and every friend and follower who reaches out to me and keeps me going. It means more than I can ever say.

Check out my other blog’s IWSG post this month too at lilicasplace.

 

 

 

 

 

 

#CTST – I LOVE THIS!

Hey everyone. I’m back. I plan on sticking around for a while (that’s the plan, anyway.)

It’s time for another posting of Celebrate the Small Things brought to us by LEXA CAINPost anything in life that you’re celebrating, no matter how small or big, on your blog.

Sign up by clicking on the image, hop around and celebrate with others.

Make Celebrate the Small Thingssure your blog post has a link to the sign-up as well, so other bloggers will be able to sign-up and hop around too. 

This is such a simple and easy blog-hop, and it also happens to be one of my favorites.  After posting the things you have to celebrate, please don’t forget to visit and thank Lexa and her awesome and amazing co-hosts for the wonderful job they do:

 

LG Keltner @ Writing Off the Edge   and Tonja Drecker @ Kidbits

I’ve been out of the hospital for a few weeks and have gotten a lot of STUFF done.

I’m celebrating:

  1. the fact the Lexa is keeping me on the #CTST list after being away for two months! Whoop!
  2. that I’ve nearly cleaned out all five (yes 5) of my email accounts
  3. I’m beginning to feel like myself again
  4. I’ve gotten a good chunk of spring cleaning done (about half)
  5. my daughter and son-in-law came to see me last week and helped me run errands
  6. I bought a new laptop (that I’m still trying to figure out), thanks in part to some amazing friends.
  7. But most importantly,

I Thank GOD I’m STILL ON THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE GRASS!! Yeah, Baby!

What have you celebrated this week?

 

 

 

IWSG – IT’S OKAY NOT TO BE OKAY

I know I’ve been gone for two months. It’s been rough. What better way to share than now.

It’s the first Wednesday of the month and time for the Insecure Writers Support Group – #IWSG.

Click on the Image to Join

Click on the Image to Join

Ninja Captain Alex J. Cavanaugh , my hero and one of my mentors, founded this amazing and wonderful group.

The group’s purpose is to allow writers to share their doubts and fears, trials and tribulations without fear of being mocked or feeling foolish. It’s also a place where writers who have “been there” can offer wisdom and guidance.

Whenever anyone finishes a draft, edits their work, finds the perfect critique group, publishes their work, or has any other good news to share, this is the place to do it too!

The awesome co-hosts for the April 6 posting of the IWSG will be Megan Morgan, Chris Votey, Viola Fury, Christine Rains, Madeline Mora-Summonte, L.G. Keltner, Rachna Chhabria, and Patricia Lynne!

Make sure you pay them a visit and thank them for all their hard work.

I’m not joking when I say it’s been rough. I was released from the hospital about two weeks ago after being admitted from the beginning of March. It wasn’t fun. In a nutshell, I fell at home one day and was out for some unknown period of time. My daughter tried reaching me from the Friday evening before she was supposed to come for the weekend to let me know she couldn’t make it but I didn’t answer. She continued calling all day Saturday (I think it was the 5th).

When I still didn’t respond, she called my friend T to come to my house to check on me. She came with her boyfriend, and was banging on my door (apparently her key didn’t want to work). My dog Sophie kept barking and barking, and I think that woke me up; I don’t know. I tried to open the door for her, but I couldn’t. I was too weak and I was in a ton of pain. She wound up going to the owner’s cottage so he could open my door. Luckily, his son was home and let them in.

They took me to the ER, where I had a battery of tests done. Unfortunately, I wasn’t treated the greatest while I was there. My friend can attest to that. At some point at home, I must’ve stepped in Sophie’s mess on her wee wee pad, so I didn’t exactly smell like roses. Boom. I was judged an alcoholic or drug seeker. I had a huge knot on my head and bruises on my body. They did find a kidney stone though.

The staff was unhappy when all my blood work and UA came back clean. They had to admit me. I’m not going to go into all the details here, but it’s safe to say that I went upstairs and at some point became altered mental status because I would hear the voices of the doctors and nurses talking about me outside my door.  I swore it was real, but told it was not.

One of the doctors told me that my UA showed infection with the kidney stone and it could sometimes cause ‘delirium’. Yet I found myself transferred to a psych unit after about four days in telemetry. It was awful. If the infection caused the delirium, then why psych? I was a ball of nerves. I was uncertain about what was real and what was not. The psychiatrist put me on Risperidone while I was there to calm the ‘voices’.

I was released after I told the doctor I didn’t hear the voices of the doctors and nurses anymore. This was true once I got home.

Then I worried about the things that have slipped over the past couple of months. My blogging was a biggie. All the hops that I’m signed up for and missed. Who wants someone who’s so unreliable? That tore away at me. My favorite ones are the IWSG and Celebrate the Small Things. Yet, I haven’t posted for over two months.

I finally had to accept that it’s okay for me not to be okay all the time. I’m doing my best. If I get dropped from any of the blog-hops, I sign up again when I’m stronger.

I just wanted to explain part of the reason why I’ve been away from you guys for a while. I’m back now, and hopefully will remain back.

Check out my other blog’s IWSG post this month too at lilicasplace.

 

 

 

 

 

#CTST – REALLY GOOD STUFF!!

Hey everyone! It’s time for another posting of Celebrate the Small Things brought to us by LEXA CAINPost anything in life that you’re celebrating, no matter how small or big, on your blog.

Sign up by clicking on the image, hop around and celebrate with others.

Make Celebrate the Small Thingssure your blog post has a link to the sign-up as well, so other bloggers will be able to sign-up and hop around too. 

This is such a simple and easy blog-hop, and it also happens to be one of my favorites.  After posting the things you have to celebrate, please don’t forget to visit and thank Lexa and her awesome and amazing co-hosts for the wonderful job they do:

 

LG Keltner @ Writing Off the Edge   and Tonja Drecker @ Kidbits

I have so many things to celebrate for a change, I don’t know where to start. This past week has been the chicken soup for the soul I’ve needed. God willing, next week will be just as bright.🙂

  1. My daughter Mandy came to visit me last weekend after her volunteer EMS shift last Friday night and stayed until Sunday. After that, she and her best friend Gabriel dropped me and Sophie off in the Bronx.
  2. We’ve been in the Bronx with my Comai Julie (best friends since 13 and we’re now 50) and godson Gabriel since Sunday. Even better, my niece Juliette, her hubs Mike and kids Romeo and Mercutio live in the apartment downstairs. We’ll probably be here for another week and a half or so.
  3. Last night me and Julie went to see my favorite Latin music artist, Juan Luis Guerra at Madison Square Garden. LOVE HIM!!!!
  4. I did another one of my favorite things, and that was co-hosting the Insecure Writers Support Group for the Ninja Captain Alex J. Cavanaugh. Love him too, cuz he’s my twinny.😀
  5. I tried something I’ve never done before, only because my niece had it done and it looks so good on her … I had my eyebrows tinted!
  6. My niece did my hair and makeup for the concert … and did a fabulous job. I almost didn’t recognize myself!
  7. Actually found time to relax, catch up on what’s been going on with the families, and even schedule some posts.

Best of them all, I’m STILL ON THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE GRASS!! Yeah, Baby!!

What have you celebrated this week?